Part 3: Going back home with my Plan ^^

Okay * drummm rooolllzzz* this title is the MOST crap of them ALL!!! ^^ hahahha! See lar....I so bored until I can start talking crap, leave the title alone *angry eyes* hahaha. lawl. I so bored at home I can start crying lar.... you know the proverb bored to tears? I am also getting bored to tears. Hee hee hee.... Waaaahhh. I feel like want to cry lar yesterday. Play snooker(or pool izit?!!) I lost dunno how many times lar. He laughing like an idiot and my dog also soooo unfaithful. Started LAUGHING its barking laugh at me! Hmph, no more cookies for you already Goldieee!! Awww... but at dinner time he looked too cutteee to be true(isn't dogs always cute? Especially when they are GUILTY?) so I terpaksa lar give him some bones to munch but still NO biscuits! Mwahahaha. No puppy eyes for me, I am not falling for it!! hahahha. So anyway, I lost like what I said but today, guess what? Hip hip hurraaayyyy, I won!!! xD So pro yea? =D Hah! Goldie, take that! I WON!!! Yeahh babyyyyy!! =) Hyper hyper alert!!! But otherwise life is sooo boring. I somehow cried when I listened to the stupid Never had a Dream come true, till the day that I found you. I cried nonstop lar. Pathetic. My mom was like. "huh?? Never kena marah also cry, kena marah also cry, boring also cry... wah...so crybaby wan lar you." I was like looking at her balefully and she grinned. My father also passed by and say joking, joking lar. "Play snooker lose to me also CRY!!!" *sarcastic* hahaha.....funneee.. =.=" ahahaaha. Okaaaayyy must continue before hyper meter hits MAX! =D

Going back with a plan in my head....

I sighed as I noticed Mun and Saj giving me their looks again. I pointedly ignored them and chatted with Mich non comitally, my mind somewhere else entirely. My face was vacant as I pondered (so much for dreaming in PEACE!) and I got a nasty shock when Mich nudged me with her leg. "Meooowwcchhh!" I yelled indignantly as she happily watched as my eyes linger back into supreme focus. I sighed and faced in front unwilling to look at her. Mich grunted and beckoned En to wake me up from my pondering. En came by and snapped her fingers at my ear causing me to jump of my chair in panic. Both of them started giggling. "Yeah hor... so funny lar..." I said sarcastically my tone hard and cold like a bitter wind of winter. "Awww c'mon talk to us." They prodded and coaxed me. I smiled slightly and looked slightly to my right and say them both(FSW and ST) chit chatting together quite oblivious to my gaze. They nodded and giggled at certain times and my eyes turned more gloomy and downcast. I noticed a thin sheen of blush on Mun's cheeks and I wondered seriously what they were talking about. Saj was giggling uprariously. It was definitely a girl thing from the way they were talking and the lilt of their laughing tones. Urgh, wasn't it just up-si-daisy to be ignored and shun of a secret about YOURSELF? Nope, I definitely think NOT. Judging from the way they were laughing they could be talking about one of my MOST embarassing moments and let me tell you, they are a LOT of embarassing moments in my life. My life is like a book called, The Guide to Clumsiness and Catastrophe..Sighing loudly another time I toyed carefully about the idea that they were REALLY talking about ME and XX but they just WEREN'T telling ME. Maybe they were mocking me about HIM.(not like I really care anyway... ^^)

My eyes grew hard and Mich touched my hand lightly in a kind of reassuring gesture. "Don't worry. We will find out soon." she said softly. then the traitorous En went and sneaked of to Mun and Saj's so called conference table and whispered what Mich said. How do we know? Well, how do you explain the sudden change of their attitude from total ignorance to constant attention? Obvious huh? =D Suddenly, Mun came up to me and smiled so radiantly with all her teeth showing and Saj with her toooo bright eyes? They made it tooo easy to guess that they were hiding something. The thing was just WHAT exactly were they hiding? Hmmm.... (@_@) hee hee hee...the whole day me and Mich cold shouldered them and so did Roop I noticed. It made me sort of realise that Roop also wasn't let on to the secret. I confided in here after school which just made her absolutely delighted that I was talking to her after weeks of silent grudges towards her. She beamed so brightly I suddenly had second thoughts about telling her what I thought. I mean...her smile was brighter than a shining armour!!! haahha. So I did it.. I told her. She nodded and she understood what I meant. "Yeah... I get it...last time me and Saj were so close. She told me every single thing in her head! But now? Siew mun this...hah...siew mun that...siew mun...siew mun...siew mun only! I hardly talk to her anymore!" Roop said in a sort of hysterical way...(or maybe I am just exaggerating such... :D) I sighed and went back home with the book tucked beneath my arm. The book felt like a safe harbour to me as it was familiar and it felt like it was glowing with promise and friendship. For all my friends hands had wrote and traced their memories into that book. It felt alive to me. Like a memoir of a friendship that was getting too fragile. I opened the book after my dinner and read it for a while. As tears gush down my face when I read the enthusiastic comments that filled the pages and the signatures of my friends, their many different handwritings...made me cry all over again. I just couldn't help it. It was like these tears were my emotions that has been cooped up in a small waterproof cage, and a single tap inside could make the whole thing shatter. Friendship was exactly like that. One wrong step, one wrong word, bam bam boom, you don't know your friends again. Some people may not realise it but once you lose a SINGLE friend, the pain of it cuts you sooo deep, you can just wallow in your tears and die. Friendship was more essential than love any day. Love is just an illusion of happiness, that exists for humans to fathom wherelse friendship was more like a boat that was sailing in a stormy sea which was calm when things are happy and light... weird huh? Family is like a chaotic place where you can still find comfort and safety, a safe harbour too. Never underestimate friendship, that is humans most common mistake and here I am...rambling nonsense again.. =)

So I wrote the oath of honesty and I packed my bags for school the next day. Before that, I took the books switched of all the lights in my bedroom, put the book under my pillow and I wept myself to sleep that day.

All of these are true facts! Pleaseee... enjoy it and feel free to leave your comments in my blog yeaa. ^^ And PS: I am going holidayyying for the whole week so I won't be able to go online yaa. Thank you. And Happy Holidays once again! (Pssssttt...enjoy your turkeeeyyy, I know I WILL! =D )