My thoughts

How would you feel if you were stuck in a situation, where you love your friend, but you don't know how to say it? I love him.... I can't forget him. Urgh. I must take a potion. seriously.............okay, I feel better...sort of. Lol... Again I shock sendiri. Lol! Life is pretty dull, boring and stiff....Very stiff. i feel like cardboard. old and stiff. urgh. I want a sincere, truthful, loving and mischievous guy, who also shock sendiri.....is that hard? Yeah...i guess it is........My trouble with XX is still fresh in my mind and BTW, I will insert another, love counselling. This is a sensitive topic and I don't wanna breach it but yes I have to. (sorry Saj! :) )


Breaking Up, and The feeling of Hopelessness

Don't blame yourself if your bf broke up with you, that is the most important thing. You must keep a sane head. Without a sane head, a relationship meltdown, could be hard to bear. You will soon fall into deep thought and tend to space out at lengthy amounts of time. Sounds like you? Well, don't worry it is natural. Then doubt, starts to creep in. Doubt fills every single space of your mind like a stifling cloud and a blanket, threatening to muffle you to death. Doubt is dangerous my sweethearts, so don't fall for it. Doubt that you weren't good enough for him, worried that you over exerted yourself, worried that you are too ugly for him... (trust me, that was how I felt when XX broke up with me....) Then the next thing that comes is realisation, reliasing that you are no more his GF, and his most trusted companion. It is hard and it sucks like hell. So just ask the realisation to Fuck Off, for it has no right to be in your mind. What you should think is:


"I am special, I am a girl, I have weaknesses and strengths, if a guy doesn't want me anymore, his bad fortune, I don't care, he can wallow for all I care. So Fuck Off exes, you are so gone case. I don't think I want to be your GF anymore, for being a GF to YOU wastes my time, bye bye sucker. After all, it is your funeral."