The soft steady beat of the rain lulled me to a stressful sleep. I woke up with pespiration running down my face. I was awake definitely. I could taste the musty fusty dusty air around me which was emitting from my moth rotten closet. I clambered up from my stiff perch and felt my frozen eyes which were aching from the tears I split a few hours ago. My crush liked another person, so what? I told myself unconvincingly as I murmured a few desolate curse words under my breath, quite fluently too for a etiquette school going girl. I sighed and let my curtain of black hair cover my eyes. I could remember the way he had looked at my friend earlier made me want to hurl at him and vent my anger out. All this while I was blinded, blinded to see that he and my friend were dating each other. I sighed and dug out my old bunch of video tapes and found one old dusty video tape about me when I was a small child, growing up with my cousins and friends. Curiousity overwhelmed me as I sat down next to video player and inserted the disk. Immediately, a volley of happy laughter drifted from the speakers that were by the telly. I sat on my beanie bag/couch seat and enjoyed the short but brief happy moment of my childhood.
A grin formed on my tear streaked cheeks when I saw myself disturbing my cousin with a garter worm. My cousin screamed out loud and I laughed at how cute I looked when I was in my pigtails. I paused the video tape as a cheeky but interesting idea loomed on me. I picked up my hairbrush and combed my hair down. I took two purple hair-ribbons and braided my hair up. I looked absolutely ridiculous. I sighed and took the ribbons out, feeling quite ridiculous as I watched my video tape of my life over and over again.
Slowly, bit by bit, my sadness started to ebb away and I was laughing at the funny clips of me playing in my kiddie-pool my mum filled for me. I sighed my eyes misty and I turned of the clip. I threw my remote control aside and perched at my window again and looked outside the window. I saw my pet brother walking by and I waved at him, my void of sadness replaced by a bright glistening, blinding sort of happiness as I picked up my backpack, and chased after my pet bro in my trusty tricycle which belonged to my little cousin sister. I wobbled dangerously on the tricycle and my pet bro giggled. I grinned back and I waved him to a slow halt. "Heyyyy." I murmured as he hopped of his bicycle. He invited me to seat on the backseat of his bike and I agreed. I held his waist tightly as he cycled through all my favourite places. My warm head rested on his back as he rhythmatically cycled round and round the whole area.
He was soon exhausted and I smiled at him as he dropped me back at my house. "Don't think I didn't know about you-know-who, Jade," he told me seriously as his eyes met mine. I smiled briefly for a split second and I kissed his cheek. I felt a sort of wetness around his cheek and I frowned. "hmmm...I thought guys weren't supposed to cry?" I asked tentatively as I hugged him. His arms fell easily around me and he sniffed a little bit, obviously laughing now. "Well this guy does." He joked when I let go of him. Strangely enough, my worry, my sadness all disappeared after I saw my pet bro. How I vaguely wished my new crush whoever it might be, would be as kind as him. Suddenly his eyes grew serious and my heart quickened a little. I sort of knew what was coming but I didn't want to acknowledge it. I was undecided.
"I had a crush with you since you became my sister. I love you more than a sister Jade. Do you love me too?" He asked, stammering a little as my flushed face was all he saw. I looked at him straight in the eye and said the words I regretted the most until now. "I love you but I don't love you like that, Mr. Fang Jun Lai." I said slowly my hesitation clearly not showing. I actually loved him but I thought he was pulling a prank on me. I was too blinded. Jun Lai's sweet brown eyes didn't meet mine as he cycled away on his bike, and I never saw him again...
Note: If you think it is all fake, it is not okay? <3>
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