Does he love me? I asked myself tentatively as I sighed and placed my small head in my heavy BM book. Tears started to cloud my eyes as I remembered his gentle soft hand on mine when I studied. Curiously enough my best subject was BM! Lolz. I am now wondering why leh. Everytime I go for tuition, all I see is his warm eyes turned to mine and the way his eyes met mine on the first time he recognized me. Sweet old memories washed me as I just stared at my BM book. My teacher thought I was studying and smiled at me. My smile didn't quite reach my eyes as my friend droned on beside me. XX looked at me with his special puppy dog eyes but this time I just didn't feel anything. My heart felt hollow from emotion. I felt used betrayed and most of all unloved. My gloominess just sank deeper when he looked at my friend with that special eyes which were reserved for me. My eyes flashed with fury and I almost slapped him right in his face. How I wish I had a good guy who I can really really depend on. A caring, sweet, sensible, slightly reckless, something like me, understands me, and most of all doesn't fall for other girls when he is dating me. I don't think I even mind if the guy was short! Urgh......how do you find true love? Does it suddenly appear? Right now I am just heartbroken. I am crying like hell now so please talk to me like usual because I have been broken since morning until now. My day seems to get worse.
Courtesy to Nick: You know what, dying seems quite peaceful now for me. Lolz. Though I haven't seen much of my life yet. Lol Lol Lol Lol. I guess life is a sock and right now, I am just upside down. :)
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