I thought we broke up? Or am I just paranoid?

This is for you XX, if you think I am a jerk, well you are a BIGGER one, lolz. Well anyway, if you are trying to confuse me, you are really doing it. I love you eventhough I am the one who broke up with you. Funny right? So anyway, continuing...--->>>>>>>> Urgh! XX I thought I made it clear, we BROKE UP. Can't you understand that? If you do, then why each time I pass by, your eyes will meet my, and then you'll turn away. XX, what are you trying to say to me???? You masterbaited your friend and now you are giving me that puppy dog eyes of yours?! What the hell lar XX, if you are trying to mess up my heart..you are certainly doing a good job. Tears now fall from my eyes as I write this in hope you might...well...ya know...whatever lar. I sound pathetic anyway.

I hate you for messing up my life, but I love you for loving me for that measly two weeks. I don't know what I am feeling now, it is just a mixture of my emotions. Confusion, heartbroken, sadness and despair as well...Just tell me once and for all XX, what the HELL, is your problem. Tell me okay? Just tell me...but eventhough...I am so messed up, I still like to write this song, that describe my feelings. Don't sing along if you get too ill. Lol.... :D To my friends: Thanks for sticking with me through this times, I love you guys! Forever and ever!

Confused feelings..<3>

I look past your shoulder,
I miss your smiling face,
Your eyes met mine and you turned away,
And I wondered what happened to us..

We used to be good friends,
You were angel too,
Your eyes glittered warmed everyday and I love you,
Though now our bond is broken, my heart is still with you.

What did you do to me?
Now my feelings are all jumbled,
Like clothings in a machine,
And softly I whisper your name.

I did everything I could,
To keep you satisfied,
But my effort wasn't just enough,
Now as my eyes tear, my feelings deter away.

So what do you want me to do?
Do you want a want a more popular girl?
I am afraid that won't happen,
As I just won't let you go.

Love isn't just for two,
Love is a thing for me and you,
Without love what is there to be useful,
So love isn't just a game for two.

What are thinking now?
When I walked past, you were holding head in your hands,
Probably thinking bout me,
But I did everything I could, and I can't do more.

So please just leave this way,
It will be easier for me,
If you ignored in anyway,
I would be hurt at first, but pain fades away..

And I did everything I could,
Just to make you feel like before,
So what did you say, just say it again,
I love you, I just love you.

Do you see the changing skies,
And the way skies turn blue,
Part of me will always be with you,
So love me again..love me like before.

I thought I was stronger, but it seems so weird,
The way I always look at you,
At times where I am talking,
Everything seems to be connected, to you.

But isn't the same for you?
Or am I just invisible...to you...
Am I just a shadow, walking by your side,
Am I just an echo of your past.

Would you love again?
If I loved you the same,
Or would you just turn away...and let me be this way.
And I love you...oh, I love you.

Though I am just so invisible, like my name,
Invisible,
Invisible,
To you...

Man I suck at rhyming a song...anyway...if you ever see this XX, I still love you like hell...please forgive me...and let us be the same as before...